StarizationBurst

Happiness You give me so much happiness When I am with you I forget about all the  pain I have But I hate the feeling I get that things aren't quite perfect Your affection is not abundant, unlike your complaints I want to spend the rest of my life by your side But I can't help that feeling of uncertainty If I am making the right choice Until I'm in your arms again Then I never want to leave

One day the smoke will clear the sun will come out and all the ice will melt One day the pain will go away the loneliness will be a thing of the past and there will be a newfound strength we share One day we will be together the conflict will disappear and our love will be pure One day is a far off time but I love you so I will wait

It's you, love That can make me feel so much That not talking to you for just one night makes me feel like I'm dying That makes me so very happy That makes me believe again That I wonder how on Earth there can be someone so perfect I wish you were here beside me So we can share more moments together So I can smell your scent To touch your face To hold me close To make me not feel so lonely without you here I hope to never let you go make this last forever beat the odds see you again and again be your forever and always I'm not in love with you but I'm falling hard

its late at night the worlds asleep wish I had some pills 'cause my mind bleeds I'm thinking of to many things Because the only thing I know about honesty Is every lie I told and tried to believe I'm afraid to be alone I'm afraid one day I'll find out And you'll be amazed at the secrets I try and keep You'll be amazed that my mouths full of lies I'm to afraid to admit to myself that my life is a flame in a house of cards

I know what I want, and who I am I know what I have to lose and who it will effect I know enough to make my own choice there is no right there is no wrong there is the choices we make and there is the consequences we get The issue isn't right or wrong though The issue is my head and heart don't agree I was positive I wanted too I was aware of what it all meant but what is this feeling the sinking in my heart the sinking feeling like I'm wrong there is no right there is no wrong there is the choices we make and there is the consequences we get I wonder what I'll do I wonder if it's right I wonder if it's wrong I wonder is

Time: Matt POV It's been two years since I came to the orphanage. In the grand scheme of things two years is a very short time, but a lot has happened in that time. My parents have died, I moved across the country, entered a gifted school, made a lot of friends and realized how good I was at computer programs. Mello was the biggest adjustment though. We started out with him hating me, bullying me, scaring me, running me out of the orphanage to being my best friend. We did some of the craziest things in the last two years, the best prank we pulled would have to be the one we pulled on Near, we put a bunch of red socks in with his laundry so