StarizationBurst

i just want you to tell me just how much you love me and everything i do that makes you happy, just for once, i want to feel like you love me just as much as i love you
do it just once, just for me, and then i can be happy, i can get over it and smile again
please just take all my doubts and fears away
i know you can
i just don't know why you don't


sorry, it helps to write out how I feel, so that way I can sort out what I need to do

Staying up late again procrastinating homework
I hate when I do this because I become so exhausted
but I don't want to actually think

its my own natural defense mechanism
I don't know what's wrong and
I do not want to find out

time is ticking by but I'm not making a move

feel free to ignore, I'm just writing midnight feelings,
and don't worry about me please

I'm going on a cruise, so no internet for a while, and sorry for everyone waiting for Matt and Mello updates, it's just about there, but I ran out of time, that will be my first project when I get back. Bye everyone, I'll miss you

I haven't been on very often lately, and I miss DA so much, I used to go on everyday, but now its a few minutes once or twice a week. Finals are coming up in two weeks, along with a bunch more fencing competitions. Hopefully life will slow down enough for me to draw some more, and hopefully post if they are good enough...

So I have also been having a weird Alice in Wonderland obsession, its really random, but inspired a lot of the music I'm listening to now and even what I'm drawing haha

I hope everyone is doing good and had Happy Holidays this year

So life is looking up. I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!! Never thought that would happen to me haha. My friends this year are actually good, no more back-stabbing (awesome) and my best friend is my best friend again. I actually smile now. Also straight A's makes me smile.

Not bragging, point of story is not too long ago, I was alone, depressed, and self harmed; the point of my story is it gets better. Chances are of my eleven or twelve watcher probably won't see this, or relate at all, but I figured I should post anyway. What's the harm

Peace